Oh gone are the good days

Please understand. I wasn't "being" rejected. I was "feeling" rejected. And, at the moment, I'm still dealing with those feelings. But, they're an internalized part of me that I need to deal with. I wish I could explain this in a more understandable way. My "Bridge to Getoverit" only goes so far. (T_T)

It is tricky.. But I am being rejected, not feeling that way.. I don't just mean on this thread, I mean for a year or more inworld when there has been only silence and emptiness and the odd perfunctory IM conversation or request for technical help.. But no desire to be involved in or support anything fun.

Whenever I used to get the grumps and glums, my mother would tease a little...

"Nobody loves me, everybody hates me, I'm gonna go eat worms."

It's a self-fulfilling prophecy.

What I am referring to happened before any grumpiness.

You should join the emo kids, they'll love you.

Meanwhile... returning to the initial point of the thread...

I am having waaay more fun now than I did when I first joined:

- For starters, I don't crash every four minutes. This probably owes more to having bought a new computer than any technical improvements on the LL side, but it's still really nice. The first time I went into SL with this new machine, my eyes popped out of my head. I could actually see other people! And walls and floors and stuff.

- Secondly, I am no longer exclusively running into French speakers. (I still don't know WHAT that was about, but somehow I ended up frequenting predominantly French speaking sims, which is great, you know, my vocabulary increased exponentially, but IMing in one's second language is a lot like homework.)

- Third, I'm actually meeting people and maintaining contact with them. I used to just wander aimlessly and occasionally I'd have a fairly monosyllabic conversation with someone, but SL all on one's own can be a little bland and boring, not to mention downright depressing and bad for one's self-esteem. Making and keeping contacts makes the lure of the world incredibly strong.

I don't spend nearly as much time in world as a lot of folks on this forum. I might go in once or twice a week, and I don't own land. I don't own land, because I don't want to spend much more time in world than I already do. I have a lot of stuff to do in my RL and I find when I go on an SL binge, my sleep is the first thing sacrificed!

Anyway... I think it's sad people think the world is going down hill. Maybe someone needs to start a thread about the best, more fun, most creative and far-out imaginative things to do in SL. I would read that with glee!

I didn't even know much difference when I entered Second Life. When I watched WindLight previews by Torley it was great.
Performance wise, I've only crashed once and people report that it crashed always.