just ignore and let this one die

Pep,didn't your mother ever teach you if you can't say something nice say nothing at all? Why are you so bent on hurting people's feelings? Don't make me glare. I feel sick and don't have it in me this morning.

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I'm finally done for now at puttering with using SL as a sketch pad for an illustration.

I wanted to do a traditional space art piece, and I didn't want to do it completely in a 3d rendering program. I wanted to have a physical painting to show after it's done.

I asked a few questions with the grad students and profs in the astronomy department at Purgatory U where I work. Some of them are researching brown dwarfs or failed stars, objects 14 or more times the size of Jupiter, massive enough to glow dimly with their own internal heat, but not massive enough to have started the nuclear fusion to become a true star.

Though I know they form out of accretion discs, I asked the astronomy folks if these objects could have more delicate rings like those of Saturn, and if so could the rings be lit by the dim glow from the *inside* (which I think would look pretty cool if seen from a nearby planet or orbiting moon). I was answered by some humming and hawing which I took to mean yes.

Knowing rings are pretty hard to draw precisely (most space artists have used plastic oval templates in the past), I thought Second Life would be an easy 3D program to model the brown dwarf and rings and quickly get an idea of how it might look. I could then blow up the final snapshot using software called Poster and transfer it to the illustration board - no giant plastic templates or arcane oval compass contraptions required.



The actual illustration will have much much more detail. This is just a small quick sketch, but I think the idea is going to work. I'll have to go back and copy the rings and give the the copies a 7 degree rotation to help smooth out the too obvious little flat sides that make up the rings. Cylinders and discs in SL are really 24 sided polygons, and it shows, but I think I can work around that.

The point of this long boring geeky post is that, besides being a 3D virtual community, chat room, RP game, dating service, sexual fantasy service, social experiment, performance venue, virtual art medium, and popular thesis subject, Second Life may have lots of other uses too!

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yes.

yesterday, i realized how i've been robbed of myself. i had no idea how low my stbx would stoop. it makes me question my entire marriage from the git-go and how i was fraudulently mislead. i have been so naive. i may never trust another soul on this earth again. it has me questioning everything.

i hope you feel better soon, Rio.

The melding of technology and art has always been a fascinating subject for me. I love seeing how people are creative with the use of new mediums to pursue their craft. Nifty explanation of the process you're undertaking Weston and looking forward to seeing how it progresses!

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I'm finally done for now at puttering with using SL as a sketch pad for an illustration.

I wanted to do a traditional space art piece, and I didn't want to do it completely in a 3d rendering program. I wanted to have a physical painting to show after it's done.

I asked a few questions with the grad students and profs in the astronomy department at Purgatory U where I work. Some of them are researching brown dwarfs or failed stars, objects 14 or more times the size of Jupiter, massive enough to glow dimly with their own internal heat, but not massive enough to have started the nuclear fusion to become a true star.

Though I know they form out of accretion discs, I asked the astronomy folks if these objects could have more delicate rings like those of Saturn, and if so could the rings be lit by the dim glow from the *inside* (which I think would look pretty cool if seen from a nearby planet or orbiting moon). I was answered by some humming and hawing which I took to mean yes.

Knowing rings are pretty hard to draw precisely (most space artists have used plastic oval templates in the past), I thought Second Life would be an easy 3D program to model the brown dwarf and rings and quickly get an idea of how it might look. I could then blow up the final snapshot using software called Poster and transfer it to the illustration board - no giant plastic templates or arcane oval compass contraptions required.



The actual illustration will have much much more detail. This is just a small quick sketch, but I think the idea is going to work. I'll have to go back and copy the rings and give the the copies a 7 degree rotation to help smooth out the too obvious little flat sides that make up the rings. Cylinders and discs in SL are really 24 sided polygons, and it shows, but I think I can work around that.

The point of this long boring geeky post is that, besides being a 3D virtual community, chat room, RP game, dating service, sexual fantasy service, social experiment, performance venue, virtual art medium, and popular thesis subject, Second Life may have lots of other uses too!

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I know the feeling. I remember feeling tiny and worthless when I got out of a relationship that I had put a lot of myself into and gotten pretty much nothing from. Finally I was able to accept that that man was just never going to be any good for me. And then began the fairly long process of forgiving myself for being "so foolish". I worked for about a year on re-building myself. And at the end of that year I WAS STRONG. That was 35 or so years ago and I've been pretty happy with myself and my life ever since.

Knowing you as I do, I'm sure you went into your marriage with your heart full of love. Even now I bet you will be able to keep your heart that way most of the time, without dwelling too much on the failings of others.
You've learned a lot about yourself, other people and the world from all your experiences and will continue to analyze and realize. You are smart and open minded and that really helps.
As for trust, even the most honorable, well meaning, and capable people cannot always be counted on to give you what you need. But you can get better and better at getting your own needs met and at living through it when they don't get met.
I feel so much good energy coming from you when you post here, 3. I feel sure you will continue to bring life and love and fun to yourself and to the people around you.

I'd like to hug you now.

yes.

yesterday, i realized how i've been robbed of myself. i had no idea how low my stbx would stoop. it makes me question my entire marriage from the git-go and how i was fraudulently mislead. i have been so naive. i may never trust another soul on this earth again. it has me questioning everything.

....... I feel sick and don't have it in me this morning.

Since I myself do not have any kind of artistic ability to speak of, I greatly admire and respect those that do. I would think it would be so wonderful to be able to create.

Kudos to Weston, who brings so much beauty, light and color into the world.

I hope you're feeling better soon, Rio. *hug*

Maureen, Elora, Brann, and Lil, hiding behind Brann

And just because Elora looked so dang fine:

QFT

3, you and I have shared quite a bit about this. I've told you about the situation I left. Just because one person did you wrong, never means everyone will. I'm a firm believer in not allowing yourself to give up on love but also a firm believer in taking responsibility for yourself and making sure that you keep yourself safe and secure. There is nothing wrong in admitting defeat when things go really wrong - in fact, to me it isn't defeat at all. It's self-preservation, and brave. I can't tell you how many people were proud of me for doing what I did, given the circumstances. They could not believe that I'd walk out of the marriage I was in because on the surface it seemed so perfect but when I'd relate the underbelly of the problem, everyone agreed leaving was the correct thing to to (even some members of his family at that point, the ones I confided in).

Kaimi gives great advice about working on yourself and taking time to get to know yourself again. This does not mean you can't enjoy yourself, it just means find out what you need from life in order to make 3 happy with what she chooses for her future. As we get older, we find that we might need different things in order for us to find fulfillment and that means in relationships as well. When younger, we sometimes make sacrifices we didn't realize would impact us so dramatically later on, sacrifices which seemed to make sense at the time but in retrospect compromised our values. Learning from ones mistakes is empowerment to growth, and change.

/me hugs you from afar and continues to be here for you, whenever you need me.