It's My 1yr SL Birthday (almost)

Yep, tis right, 1yr on Sunday I would have been rezzed into this world, never to be the same again. It isn't exactly the greatest time to be having a birthday for me at the moment, but the Lindens told me I couldn't move it

So I wanted to make a rambling post about things (plz forgive me if its incoherent or complete tosh, as I haven't slept at all for about 30 hours now)

Almost a year ago today, I came across a link, purely by accident, and stumbled and fumbled my way into Second Life. I came in looking like a 13st tranvestite with oversized melons for boobs and hopefully my looks have improved a lil , but as soon as I was tp'd to the welcome area, I knew I was in a place where I belonged.

Whether I want to wander around alone and just waste time, or spend time with friends, maybe even strangers, I know I can do that and completely be myself in SL, I am much more forward and irritating here than in RL

I met my first group of friends, and we were Club Divine, we had many a good time, and today I still have two of those people by my side daily, James Beckett and Devlin Grayson, I love you boys more than anything, you keep me sane when I think I am cracking up, you make me snort diet coke thru my nose when I have just put a clean shirt on, and you pick me up when I am flagging. You two truly are two of the best friends a girl could EVER wish for and for that I thank you.

I have met many wonderful ppl, Raji (still shaking that ass), Whoopy (your fishy business you know that) and many others, from when I was a wee noob, we still hang on SV, having a ball, being totally random and stupid, but thats what I like about us.

Then along came my first boyf, he was a complete asshat but he bought me into the world of virtual dating, and I gotta say I liked it.

Anyway, I fumbled my way through 4 or 5 months and ran into many colourful and friendly people along the way.

Then we come to present day: we have Fred - We have just very recently parted ways, but he has been a part of my SL for almost 8months now, and whatever happens, will always hold a place in my heart, I am truly gutted and beside myself that things didn't work out, but then I guess thats what timezones, different countries and SL crossing over into RL does for you, maybe one day we will work things out, who knows, nobody I guess.

Then we have Willow, I have my Sis Willow Caldera, one of the finest friends, rocks, and confidantes a girl could ask for, If I could call this woman my sister in RL, I so gladly would, and soon we will be painting London Red again, if its recovered from last time , I thank you sis, for standing by me, for being there for me, and for just being you! (and taming spikey dude, LOVE YA BIL).

Joshua Chaos and Quartie Biggles, omg, if it weren't for you two, I think I might have gone insane by now, you pick me up, without a doubt every time I feel myself falling, Joshua you are simply amazing, you truly truly amaze me with everything you do, and you know I love you deeply, and I am glad to call you one of my best friends. Quartie, your as mad as a march hare, but then we kinda all are aren't we , you make me howl, you make me splutter, your a wonderful, kind person and I will always be here for you, and you for me, like true friends are supposed to be.

Sadly I have seen many people I care about leave, never to return (or return with alts and not goddamn tell me!!!) and they will always be in my heart and my inventory is pics that would shame them

There are way WAY to many people to mention in here without rambling on for pages and PAGES AND PAGES... So I will come to an end.

I have laughed, I have cried (no I am not Siggy's Emote-a-Rama), I have stood stamping my feet whilst trying to argue with insane, crazy asshats, I have wanted to reach through my screen and just hug people when they are down, I have many a times wanted to smash my monitor and go back to my RL and never look back.

At this moment in time, my head and my heart are pulling me in different directions. Part of me wants to stay, because I have many MANY wonderful people and I love SL, part of me wants to go, to shield myself from anymore pain, hurt, upset, but I have to think, what outweights? The Hurt or The Laughter. And I have cried more tears of joy and laughter over this game than tears of sadness, and despite what people say, SL is not only a game, it is a way of life, a way of life I have grown accustomed to, and I just don't think I could turn my back on it.

I guess I kinda rambled on a bit in this post, but I *am* tired, and kinda weary, and my head is spinning in a million different directions at the moment.

I guess I really should go get some coffee now before I die at my desk.

To all my friends and family out there, I adore you all, always <3<3

Happy 1yr Birthday to me....

EDIT: Love you forum dwellers too , you make me laugh at work, and for that I salute you!

*huggles*

happy birthday Wheels

awwwww Happy Early Rezzingday Wheels !! I'm sorry to hear about you and Fred but you MAY GO NOWHERE !! I'll stop in slootsville soon to see ya. Been too long !
Hugs

Happy Birthday Willow!

You were always such a nice neighbor in the Maui days

Tito

Awww Maui *cries*

I second that *cries*

And thankees guys, means alot to me right now

Happy Rez-Day, Willow!
The forums wouldn't be the same without you

Happy 1st Birthaversay Willow! We really need to dance nakkie on Kris's desk again.

happy birthday willow!

I enjoy your forum presence and humor a great deal and hope to hang out in world someday!

You can't leave Willow, how will I ever get to hear Britishismns like this if you do?

Happy Boithday!

I second that Willow - *hugs

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*big hugs!* Happy rezday Willow. You better not go anywhere. You're exactly the kind of person the world could use a lot more of. Even though I don't know you well, I do know this much... SL's a better place with you in it. Keep your chin up

Happy birthday, Willow! I agree with Chip (again, damn!) - SL is a better place with you in it.

Thanks guys you really don't know how much this means to me, I won't be going anywhere, I just wanna give up sometimes, like I guess we all do when things get a bit much.

*hugs* and thanks again, you guys really do rocketh

Love you, Willolololow. *hugs tight* I'm so glad to see you've made it a whole year and that I've been privledged to call you friend. You're amazing and SL is better for having you in it.

*MWUH*!

Well personally I'll be a very peeved twin if you try to go anywhere, and please let us not forget: I know where you live -.-

You're SL's finest, sis, not to mention the best sister and friend a girl could have, and if I MUST keep you here by clinging to your ankles, you betcha I will

Oh and HAPPY BIRTHDAY ^_^

Can't wait to go out and get up to mischief with you again sis, love you loads - don't leaaaavveeee meee!!!

^_^ xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

*big squeezy gropey glompy hugs*

HA!

My ankles are too fast for you!!!!

and I love you too, thanks SO much for being there for me, you really are the sanity that drives me

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Ummm, Willow, if you leave who will be our Queen Sloot of SL?????? Chaos will take over and everyone will be fighting like mad to take that sacred position!!!! Do you really want this on your conscience??? You will feel so bad all the biting and mud wrestling in bikinis of those who have been sitting and waiting for this day! Please consider your actions girl, cuz this is very serious.

* trots off to find that bikini and looks around making sure the hubby is asleep cause he be mad if i leave the house this way, shhhh*

Which is ironic, sis - you ought to see my driving

And you know it's a pleasure - not like you're not there every single time for me too ^_^

*saluuuuuuuuuuutes*

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Happy almost 1st SL Birthday Willow!

I am sorry to hear about your recent breakup - keep the joy in your heart and you know love will find you again!

Err, your forgetting another reason you can't leave SL - you've contributed the most messages at the Three Words Reborn Thread and you really do not want to surrender your title! (Although there are some quickly rising stars tearing up through the ranks).

I remember when you first burst into SL - you were everywhere and in every Sim! Same here on the Forums - OMG - I know you conspired with LL to have everyone's message-counters subtract hundreds of messages (and in a few cases over 1400+) and now you are the most prolific poster in all the SL World.

Somehow I just know you're gonna stay for your second most Excellent! year in SL! (and da Forums too!)

Celebrate!

HAPPY SL BIRTHDAY WILLOW!

Sloot!

Happy SL Birthday Willow..... hugs.. chin up girl.. your one of the good ones.. we cant lose you

Happy Birthday!

It's my one-year birthday soon too! May 28th!

Willow - HAPPY HAPPY Birthday!!!

In case you don't know it... you bring alot of smiles to faces across the world. YOu are clever, witty, sexy, 99.9% in a good mood and that other .01% is heartbreak and nothing evil!

I, for one, love what you do here and check in to these forums if no ohter part of SL to see what you and a few chosen few others are up to.

Now that you are free... well we can figure out our wedding plans after the healin has occurred!!