I'm leaving, sort of. Been a while since I've posted on these forums, but I've been in world a ton as usual until recently..it's just stopped being so much fun. Occasionally, it's nice, a fun place, but I need a break. Everyone gets to that point.. a lot of times you'll see someone posting a 'goodbye world, I hate you all' message, but you know what? That's not me. I love this world, even now, when it's started losing it's luster, I love Second Life. SO instead of a big post of everything I hate, or why I'm leaving, or willing my things away... I'd like to talk about my Second Life. Even if no one listens, I just want to talk about it. There wil be some advice, some random musings, all the normal things from one of my longer posts I suppose... and it's all in a good bye.
I've lived a longer SL than many people, really... I've been around a while now, seen and done a lot.. hell I've done everything, by now.
I started creating in SL immediately, and still haven't stopped. I remember the first thing I made with the library textures, as Okiphia Rayna... a small 'toy castle' of sorts, made of pink mesh. Then was a 'love gazebo', complete with a hearts particle effect a friend had given me.
The first person I met was french..I was introduced to the Babbler my first day in SL! I think I got a pretty good crash course in SL from her, really, even if I couldn't understand hal;f the garble that thing was spitting out. My good friend Sindiesel also helped me out a lot.. met him in SL, and he brought me here. He taught me to build at first, and let me use his friend's land to mess about for a while. I haven't spoken to him in months..I wish I had.
I started, then stopped scripting, on my second day. I figured a wobbly box was easier and more immediately fun than a talking one anyway, so hey, why not just stick with that for a while?
Since then, though, as all of my characters, Okiphia Rayna, Okiphia Anatine, Kaddaj Vita, Jen Elfenbeim, and Okiphia Rayna... I've always done everything I could figure out how. (Most of those were alts). I learned to script, though not amazingly well, I learned to build, to make sculpties, to make textures, animations, sound bytes, gestures, clothes... everything I could think of. You name a genre of content creation in SL, and I promise, I've tried it. And I loved all of it... I didn't stick with it all, I had my favorites, building and sculpties as most people who know me know, but I had fun with everything I did.
I've had relationships here int his Life, ones that I will never forget, a couple that I think I'll try to forget, and some that I want(ed) to never end. I've been Owned, and Owned in the BDSM Lifestyle..decided it's what I want in RL, after not knowing anything about it before SL, I've had vanilla relationships, I've had plenty of friends... some that I talk to outside of SL, some that someday I hope I'll meet.
I've been active on the forums.. in fact, I know, it's a bit presumptuous, but I honestly think that for a while there, first as Oki Rayna, and then as this, Keira Wells, I was the most active forumite around, in spurts. I was always on here, posting, reading, learning, helping, and just having fun. I still love the forum, just been busy lately. To the oldbies, you rock, to the newbies, you rock too, and stick around for a while. Have some fun, see what you can see, and just..do whatever you want. Everything you want.
I've spent my time here as I wish I could live my RL. Doing what I want, meeting new people, learning everything I can, and creating things that I think look good. I even made money once... of course, when compared tot he money I've spent here it's not much, but still.. it was nice to get a check and think "I can do something that is valuable'.
I haven't been paid for work since then, honestly. I left the first time because of a relationship issue and also because I'd made building into work..lost it's fun. Now I'm leaving because I've disassociated myself with everything in SL that I love.. and I'm not sure how it's happened. I hardly build, don't talk to anyone anymore..it's just lost the fun, and I know it's my fault.
At any rate, I'm not really leaving. This is my goodbye, but I know I'll be here, sticking around, posting occasionally, logging into the client to see what's up, make something..just not nearly as much. I'm moving on and up.
Second Life has taught me people skills, really. it's also taught me some things that will be useful for careers, and my hope of an MMO.
Scripting has taught me a bit about coding, and now I'll take what I've learned from LSL and apply it to Python, or C++, or the next great language. I've learned to use graphics tools better, because I wanted to make sculpties so badly. I wanted to make something great, and feel that I can now. I'll use the skill in those programs to make..well..everything! I love 3d work. It's just plain fun. And always will be, forever. SL has taught me to imagine beyond what I think I can do..and try for it, and achieve it. I've learned that that's how to make myself better..not by reading the next instruction book 12 times, not by asking for more help, but by trying something new, bigger, better, and doing whatever I need to to learn to do it right, and have it work out.
Well...this has been a long ass post, and I think it should only be just a little longer. So...some advice for newbies.
-Have fun
-Be nice. People are people, even when pixels.
-Do what you want to. Shop, wander, dance, have sex, create, whatever you want, do it.
-HAVE FUN!
-Listen to help. Seriously. All the others here that know tons have helped me a lot, and will continue to help people. They can teach so much, if only you listen.
And last but not least..an offer.
I own 10 kilometers in the Sliderule sim. Currently it's a graveyard I've made into my home, with a large box-house waaaay above. While I'm not selling it, and will retain ownership, I'd like to let someone use it. No charge, no rent, just make sure you use it well. Please send me a PM and tell me what you want to do with it, or just why you want it. No idea is too stupid, just let me know, and someone will get to use it. For as long as they want.
And with that.. no, you can't have my stuff, good bye, have fun, don't forget to write, and I'll see you in Life.
-Me (duh)
Tl;DR:
I'm leaving, love you all, have fun, see you around. Bye!
" - Prospero Linden
