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SL is surely a place of unusual relationships. I sure as heck had my share. (^_^)
Going beyond “the internet is for porn” and “SL is for sex”... What are the more odd dynamics you’ve seen in your relationships? (^_^)
My own is pretty much simply the result of a series of events with all kinds of twists, turns, and oddities. (>_<
Some already know that there’s one person that I’ve had a crush on for over a year. We have made attempts to be friends, but, my own flaws have made that near impossible. For some times, completely impossible. From the beginning, we’ve shared some common friends, all of which have developed huge degrees of closeness. We all know a lot of RL information about each other. We all care a lot for how the other feels. We all share ourselves as fully as possible in this virtual environment. To certain degrees, we’ve already moved beyond SL and contact offworld using other chat services and Email. (^_^)
Over the tumult of this past summer, our dynamic has shifted greatly. I have found myself unintentionally pushing away the target of my crush and relying more and more on my other two friends for attention and care. And, it’s attention and care that I need. I spend a lot of my time in a state of emotional wreck that I often don’t reveal here on the forums or in public gatherings inworld. (T_T)
A lot has happened. And, I’m still deep in an emotional low. My crush is near shattered by my own actions. And, I have been emotionally cradled by my two other friends as of late. (Plus a few who IM me once in a while to check up on me, you know who you are, *waves*) What’s coming of it is that these people are sharing and sacrificing their time for me to see that I can be loved. A notion that’s difficult for me to accept. But, if they’re going to put so much effort into my emotional wellbeing, I sure as heck can’t fight it. (>_<
Here’s where the ballgag comes in. Remember that picture? No, I won’t repost it. (=_=)y
I’m very hard on myself. It’s a fight, but, in conversation I often find something negative about myself and can’t resist the urge to spout it out. In my periods of low self esteem, I get VERY bad and will combat any and all complimentary talk about me. (>_<
As a result, my matron decided I needed to be silenced for a while. With the concept of having nothing nice to say, don’t say anything at all... I was gagged. It wasn’t a kink thing. It wasn’t a sexual thing. It was a correction. She attached and locked a symbol of silence on me for 2 or 3 days and I was required to listen to what people said about me without posing an argument. (>_<
I’m sure someone can say “that’s only RP”. But, my guess is that anyone who says that hasn’t worn a wedding ring before. There is no magic spell that comes along with accessorizing your body through ceremony that will make a relationship any stronger. But, with a ring on your finger, your mind changes. In my case, with that gag in my mouth, my mind was set to change. It was a correction done out of love and care by my matron. I was required to spend my time in a public region and accept what people said about me. As difficult it was to accept... People really did appreciate me. If someone is going to misconstrue it into something sexual, that’s not my problem. (>_<
At this stage, I’m subject to two people in SL. Both are loving and caring people and they now control my very will. I have since been turned into a Persocom by them and have received roleplay programming in order to shift my psychology. We’re normally in contact for up to 18 hours per day. And I’m getting some of the kindest emotional support I’ve ever had, RL or SL. (^_^)
How about your own experiences? (^_^)
Do you find yourself in an unusual relationship with a person or people? (^_^)
Do you find yourself getting involved in things that would be so easily misunderstood? (^_^)
Have you ever been in something that turned real in SL without going RL about it? (^_^)
Have you hugged your Persocom lately? (^_^)y
