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Madiera Westerburg

waiting for apocolypse :D

Join date: 6 Apr 2004

Posts: 836

04-01-2005 06:45

i know that there are a few of you out there that get frustrated with sl being down, or delays logging in, ect... but let me just put things in perspective a bit for you...<strugglin with right words, putting thoughts into print ect so excuse me ahead of time...>

been struggling a while with real life, at times wanting to kill myself, at other times just in so much pain ive just cut my arm <im a cutter> Weds i left my rl husband..for the most part it has been an amicable split...but havent dealt with poison from either side family wise yet...we have a 3 year old...for now ive had to leave him with his father and it breaks my heart every day i dont get to see him. Ive made a decision to stop speaking with my family because everything they say to me is hurtful and I couldnt go on

so im starting over...imagine if you would a crash in sl so bad you lose all your friends, your inventory your house, your land, your vehicles...that is what i am now dealing with in rl. Im starting over with basically NOTHING.

I want to thank the people in sl that have been there for me when i needed them the most...the kind words and the shoulder to cry on...Onsund knox, billy grace, Paolo Portocarrero, my iw family hugs all of you...its going to be awhile for me til i can see a positive outcome in life, but i know it will come eventually. thanks.

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"Unfortunately you cant wipe them out of existence... merely hide the drivel they have to spew"- Kris Ritter

From: Neehai Zapata

If the lord was handing out bacterial infections for sinning, you'd be at the free clinic all the time.

just when I manage to convince myself I'm a superior being, I walk into a door

a lost user

Join date: ?

Posts: ?

04-01-2005 07:17

We love you Maddie & are here for you. You know that you can talk to me any time about anything. You are not alone.

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Taco Rubio

also quite creepy

Join date: 15 Feb 2004

Posts: 3,349

04-01-2005 07:27

Madiera,

I'm sorry for all the pain you're going through in your life right now. If it helps at all, I had a very similar experience, during the process of which I lost almost everything dear to me, and everything I considered important to my life. I know what you mean when you say you're really having to 'start over'. Please try to think positively; it DOES get better with time. And one positive thing you can think about right now is what a rare opportunity it is to be able to be a 'new you'. Some people get so locked into their world that they are stuck with things they don't like about themselves, you have the chance to reinvent who you are and how you relate to the world.

I wish you the very best of luck.

Trinity Serpentine

Schwan's Avitar Reject

Join date: 1 Oct 2003

Posts: 2,972

04-01-2005 07:34

Madie, I know you have a lot of people already supporting you but if you could use one more, I will be here too, if you need me. *Sends you a tight v-hug*

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From: someone

Yeah, the toaster has great speakers, but all I want is fucking toast.

- The Filthy Critic reviewing Aeon Flux

Paolo Portocarrero

Puritanical Hedonist

Join date: 28 Apr 2004

Posts: 2,393

04-01-2005 07:47

Mum, where's that Email you promised? You know I'm here for ya.

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> Flagship store, Santo Paolo's Lofts & Boutiques
> SLBoutique

Willow Zander

Having Blahgasms

Join date: 22 May 2004

Posts: 9,935

04-01-2005 07:48

Mooooooom,

You know we all love you dearly, and we have talked about how your feeling, I have been there too, and it *isn't* pleasent, but you will make it through, with the love and support of your friends and your beloved Ons

We love you hun

Always

xxxxx

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*I'm not ready for the world outside...I keep pretending, but I just can't hide...*

"Notice that the stiffest tree is most easily cracked, while the bamboo or willow survives by bending with the wind."

<3 Giddeon's <3

Paolo Portocarrero

Puritanical Hedonist

Join date: 28 Apr 2004

Posts: 2,393

04-01-2005 07:52

From: Taco Rubio

Madiera,

I'm sorry for all the pain you're going through in your life right now. If it helps at all, I had a very similar experience, during the process of which I lost almost everything dear to me, and everything I considered important to my life. I know what you mean when you say you're really having to 'start over'. Please try to think positively; it DOES get better with time. And one positive thing you can think about right now is what a rare opportunity it is to be able to be a 'new you'. Some people get so locked into their world that they are stuck with things they don't like about themselves, you have the chance to reinvent who you are and how you relate to the world.

I wish you the very best of luck.

Wow, Taco. We share even more in common than I had previously thought. Lost everything, myself, in the tech bust of 2002. It was also about that time that I finally came to terms with my sexual orientation, as well. What the hell? Go for broke, I always say.

Mum, stay strong. You have one of the biggest hearts I've ever encountered. You also have drive, determination and leadership qualities. Don't lose heart. Taco's right: Give it time. We are here for you.

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Facades by Paolo - Photo-Realistic Skins for Doods
> Flagship store, Santo Paolo's Lofts & Boutiques
> SLBoutique

Rose Karuna

Lizard Doctor

Join date: 5 Jun 2004

Posts: 3,772

04-01-2005 08:08

From: Taco Rubio

Madiera,

I'm sorry for all the pain you're going through in your life right now. If it helps at all, I had a very similar experience, during the process of which I lost almost everything dear to me, and everything I considered important to my life. I know what you mean when you say you're really having to 'start over'. Please try to think positively; it DOES get better with time. And one positive thing you can think about right now is what a rare opportunity it is to be able to be a 'new you'. Some people get so locked into their world that they are stuck with things they don't like about themselves, you have the chance to reinvent who you are and how you relate to the world.

I wish you the very best of luck.

(((Hugs Madiera)))

I second what Taco said. Time is a great healer, it's just that it seems to pass so much more slowly when you are in pain. When the minutes feel like hours, hang in there my dear, they will pass.

.

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I Do Whatever My Rice Krispies Tell Me To

Liona Clio

Angel in Disguise

Join date: 30 Aug 2004

Posts: 1,500

04-01-2005 08:23

Hi Maddie!

*snug* I know how yoo feel too... I'm cheering for ya, all of us are!

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"Well, my days of not taking you seriously have certainly come to a middle."

Madiera Westerburg

waiting for apocolypse :D

Join date: 6 Apr 2004

Posts: 836

04-02-2005 17:50

thank you for all your kind words...and it hits me at the worst moments too...watchin parents with their children at malls...being uncomfortable sleepin ect...missin the guys i work with at the station even ....even though they all sexist pigs.. lol i MISS THEM ARRRGHHH...pardon my grammer and spellin ahead of time i am slightly buzzin on merlot...onsund k is my dream come true and i know it will all be peaceful eventually...hugs all

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"Unfortunately you cant wipe them out of existence... merely hide the drivel they have to spew"- Kris Ritter

From: Neehai Zapata

If the lord was handing out bacterial infections for sinning, you'd be at the free clinic all the time.

just when I manage to convince myself I'm a superior being, I walk into a door

Chameleon Calliope

Invisible Woman

Join date: 14 Feb 2005

Posts: 76

04-02-2005 18:45

I called it "the black hole".... the depression after divorce. It hurts like hell, but you will beat it, and you'll come out of it a stronger person than you were before. In the meantime you have a lot of people in your corner! *hug*

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April Firefly

Idiosyncratic Poster

Join date: 3 Aug 2004

Posts: 1,253

04-02-2005 19:11

What Chameleon says is true. After a while, you will realize you are doing the right thing and wonder why you didn't do it sooner. The worse part is the way the mind blurs the bad memories and makes the good ones seems so much better when logically you know it wasn't that way.

Good luck, hon.

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From: Billybob Goodliffe

the truth is overrated

From: Argent Stonecutter

The most successful software company in the world does a piss-poor job on all these points. Particularly the first three. Why do you expect Linden Labs to do any better?

Yes, it's true, I have a blog now!

Lo Jacobs

Awesome Possum

Join date: 28 May 2004

Posts: 2,734

04-02-2005 19:15

*Lots of hugs*

I hope you can figure it out soon.

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http://churchofluxe.com/Luster

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Madiera Westerburg waiting for apocolypse :D Join date: 6 Apr 2004 Posts: 836	04-01-2005 06:45 i know that there are a few of you out there that get frustrated with sl being down, or delays logging in, ect... but let me just put things in perspective a bit for you...<strugglin with right words, putting thoughts into print ect so excuse me ahead of time...> been struggling a while with real life, at times wanting to kill myself, at other times just in so much pain ive just cut my arm <im a cutter> Weds i left my rl husband..for the most part it has been an amicable split...but havent dealt with poison from either side family wise yet...we have a 3 year old...for now ive had to leave him with his father and it breaks my heart every day i dont get to see him. Ive made a decision to stop speaking with my family because everything they say to me is hurtful and I couldnt go on so im starting over...imagine if you would a crash in sl so bad you lose all your friends, your inventory your house, your land, your vehicles...that is what i am now dealing with in rl. Im starting over with basically NOTHING. I want to thank the people in sl that have been there for me when i needed them the most...the kind words and the shoulder to cry on...Onsund knox, billy grace, Paolo Portocarrero, my iw family hugs all of you...its going to be awhile for me til i can see a positive outcome in life, but i know it will come eventually. thanks. _____________________ "Unfortunately you cant wipe them out of existence... merely hide the drivel they have to spew"- Kris Ritter From: Neehai Zapata If the lord was handing out bacterial infections for sinning, you'd be at the free clinic all the time. just when I manage to convince myself I'm a superior being, I walk into a door
a lost user Join date: ? Posts: ?	04-01-2005 07:17 We love you Maddie & are here for you. You know that you can talk to me any time about anything. You are not alone. _____________________
Taco Rubio also quite creepy Join date: 15 Feb 2004 Posts: 3,349	04-01-2005 07:27 Madiera, I'm sorry for all the pain you're going through in your life right now. If it helps at all, I had a very similar experience, during the process of which I lost almost everything dear to me, and everything I considered important to my life. I know what you mean when you say you're really having to 'start over'. Please try to think positively; it DOES get better with time. And one positive thing you can think about right now is what a rare opportunity it is to be able to be a 'new you'. Some people get so locked into their world that they are stuck with things they don't like about themselves, you have the chance to reinvent who you are and how you relate to the world. I wish you the very best of luck.
Trinity Serpentine Schwan's Avitar Reject Join date: 1 Oct 2003 Posts: 2,972	04-01-2005 07:34 Madie, I know you have a lot of people already supporting you but if you could use one more, I will be here too, if you need me. Sends you a tight v-hug _____________________ From: someone Yeah, the toaster has great speakers, but all I want is fucking toast. - The Filthy Critic reviewing Aeon Flux
Paolo Portocarrero Puritanical Hedonist Join date: 28 Apr 2004 Posts: 2,393	04-01-2005 07:47 Mum, where's that Email you promised? You know I'm here for ya. _____________________ Facades by Paolo - Photo-Realistic Skins for Doods > Flagship store, Santo Paolo's Lofts & Boutiques > SLBoutique
Willow Zander Having Blahgasms Join date: 22 May 2004 Posts: 9,935	04-01-2005 07:48 Mooooooom, You know we all love you dearly, and we have talked about how your feeling, I have been there too, and it isn't pleasent, but you will make it through, with the love and support of your friends and your beloved Ons We love you hun Always xxxxx _____________________ *I'm not ready for the world outside...I keep pretending, but I just can't hide...* "Notice that the stiffest tree is most easily cracked, while the bamboo or willow survives by bending with the wind." <3 Giddeon's <3
Paolo Portocarrero Puritanical Hedonist Join date: 28 Apr 2004 Posts: 2,393	04-01-2005 07:52 From: Taco Rubio Madiera, I'm sorry for all the pain you're going through in your life right now. If it helps at all, I had a very similar experience, during the process of which I lost almost everything dear to me, and everything I considered important to my life. I know what you mean when you say you're really having to 'start over'. Please try to think positively; it DOES get better with time. And one positive thing you can think about right now is what a rare opportunity it is to be able to be a 'new you'. Some people get so locked into their world that they are stuck with things they don't like about themselves, you have the chance to reinvent who you are and how you relate to the world. I wish you the very best of luck. Wow, Taco. We share even more in common than I had previously thought. Lost everything, myself, in the tech bust of 2002. It was also about that time that I finally came to terms with my sexual orientation, as well. What the hell? Go for broke, I always say. Mum, stay strong. You have one of the biggest hearts I've ever encountered. You also have drive, determination and leadership qualities. Don't lose heart. Taco's right: Give it time. We are here for you. _____________________ Facades by Paolo - Photo-Realistic Skins for Doods > Flagship store, Santo Paolo's Lofts & Boutiques > SLBoutique
Rose Karuna Lizard Doctor Join date: 5 Jun 2004 Posts: 3,772	04-01-2005 08:08 From: Taco Rubio Madiera, I'm sorry for all the pain you're going through in your life right now. If it helps at all, I had a very similar experience, during the process of which I lost almost everything dear to me, and everything I considered important to my life. I know what you mean when you say you're really having to 'start over'. Please try to think positively; it DOES get better with time. And one positive thing you can think about right now is what a rare opportunity it is to be able to be a 'new you'. Some people get so locked into their world that they are stuck with things they don't like about themselves, you have the chance to reinvent who you are and how you relate to the world. I wish you the very best of luck. (((Hugs Madiera))) I second what Taco said. Time is a great healer, it's just that it seems to pass so much more slowly when you are in pain. When the minutes feel like hours, hang in there my dear, they will pass. . _____________________ I Do Whatever My Rice Krispies Tell Me To
Liona Clio Angel in Disguise Join date: 30 Aug 2004 Posts: 1,500	04-01-2005 08:23 Hi Maddie! snug I know how yoo feel too... I'm cheering for ya, all of us are! _____________________ "Well, my days of not taking you seriously have certainly come to a middle."
Madiera Westerburg waiting for apocolypse :D Join date: 6 Apr 2004 Posts: 836	04-02-2005 17:50 thank you for all your kind words...and it hits me at the worst moments too...watchin parents with their children at malls...being uncomfortable sleepin ect...missin the guys i work with at the station even ....even though they all sexist pigs.. lol i MISS THEM ARRRGHHH...pardon my grammer and spellin ahead of time i am slightly buzzin on merlot...onsund k is my dream come true and i know it will all be peaceful eventually...hugs all _____________________ "Unfortunately you cant wipe them out of existence... merely hide the drivel they have to spew"- Kris Ritter From: Neehai Zapata If the lord was handing out bacterial infections for sinning, you'd be at the free clinic all the time. just when I manage to convince myself I'm a superior being, I walk into a door
Chameleon Calliope Invisible Woman Join date: 14 Feb 2005 Posts: 76	04-02-2005 18:45 I called it "the black hole".... the depression after divorce. It hurts like hell, but you will beat it, and you'll come out of it a stronger person than you were before. In the meantime you have a lot of people in your corner! hug _____________________
April Firefly Idiosyncratic Poster Join date: 3 Aug 2004 Posts: 1,253	04-02-2005 19:11 What Chameleon says is true. After a while, you will realize you are doing the right thing and wonder why you didn't do it sooner. The worse part is the way the mind blurs the bad memories and makes the good ones seems so much better when logically you know it wasn't that way. Good luck, hon. _____________________ From: Billybob Goodliffe the truth is overrated From: Argent Stonecutter The most successful software company in the world does a piss-poor job on all these points. Particularly the first three. Why do you expect Linden Labs to do any better? Yes, it's true, I have a blog now!
Lo Jacobs Awesome Possum Join date: 28 May 2004 Posts: 2,734	04-02-2005 19:15 Lots of hugs I hope you can figure it out soon. _____________________ http://churchofluxe.com/Luster

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